The dreams...

I think today i break my own record...
i sleep for so long
no wonder my family give a title..
tat is "Sleeping Queen"
dun play play with this title hoh..
i sleep since 10pm yesterday till today 5pm..
hmm..tat is 19 hours..

amazing rite, usually if i sleep for 5 hours,
i already so much to me..
but today i sleep for so much...
my goodness, it shock me..
now..i have a very heavy and painful head
i need to stick the cooling plaster on my forehead..

what happen to me, my head keep on thinking of him,
when wif him, i feel so sad..
after break off with him, i feel so hurt..
while i sleeping, i dreaming of him
it seems so real, i enjoying life with him..
a simple life..cooks together, at our own house..
i do my readings, he take a nap...

wow..really a perfect life for me...
but unfortunately, when i woke up..
its not true at all..

its seems very strange..when i together wif him..
i dream of he have other women and will be away from me,
we will not last long....
tats y im supersentive when got gals touch him, sms him.
i will feel very suspicious..

but when i break up wif him,
i dream of having life with him pulak..
am i 'lorri jean' leh...

Last friday, when im yum cha wif my fren,
he told me, if you feel so moody coz of him..
why dont you approach him and ask to be back to him

i wun do tat, if i want it..i wun ask for break off instead..
i can feel he dun wan to have love life with me..
he dun wan to be with me anymore...
tats y last 5 months be with him..i can feel it..
tats y dun wan us to feel the more pain between us..

at first i feel reluctant to do it,
i bring my little doggie to accompany me..
i know i will keep on crying..
unable to say a word..
i think my this kinda attitude dissapointed him..
he dunno tat when im too sad..
i cant say even a word..
let me cool down..sometimes i feel reluctant to say the things in my heart..

we is micommunication, not understand each other very well..
thats y happen in this way....
so sad....
if he ask me back to me with him..
tats mean he 100% ready to be with me...
for sure i will say yes..
but i know this things wun happen
as i know too good to be true...