Suicide?

When I wake up Im thinking the way how to suicide, am i sot jor.

Anyway not his fault, everything is me oni mah. Better me die, then will be no problem at all.

I think of go to balcony and jump off, seems very strong power ask me to do so. How?

Is it an end for me?

Silent with tears

After a while, my tears coming back. But i try to control it.

Now it hard for me to control, my heart so pain. Again ppl lie to me, why i always being trapped.

Cause of my stupidity, i guess. Im just rubbish anyway, that why ppl treat me like rubbish. Simply throw something to me.

So sad and it have tears on my eye. Too sad to do assignment. I cant take this off my mind.

Scene by scene bad things that happen to me last time, flash back in my brain. I think I need to restart myself, might be have a sleep first. I dun wan think of the bad things, it very awful to me. I hate that. But my heart is so pain. I cant think except my heart is so pain. Damn it!

I feel like I wanna go back home. Dun wan ever talk or see........