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From today onwards, im still very love you..
even wat happen to you, im still very love you..
i will help you no matter wat..
but i will not asking u back for anything,
really sincere from my heart..
im really do...
love a person, no need together..
far far away, i know u live happily,
always smile is enuff for me..

from all the blogs, i din mention the name of him..
him..my beloved siang siang..
now the only first time i mention his name..

i write blog here instead of friendster,
i just dun want his fren to disturb him
about my feelings...
im always feel sad and moody..
at previously at the rented house we live together..
im always hide myself n cry...
n go to the garden..n wanna be alone...
but i remember he follow me behind..
scares that i will be danger...
but i always try so many ways not to let him follow..
n i found a garden to hide, they never know till today..

a place for me to be silent..
after break off with u..
i have hide myself, make myself bz...
about 2 years...im still miss you so much,
yesterday, i been chatting wif loy..
when i sad im sad...he know im sad coz of u..
but u never know that im very sad..
really really very sad...
till a tear very hard to drop..
the pain in my heart very deep...

but from today onwards...
i wun let my love for you..i feel so pain..
but opposite..love you should be a very happy things rite
very very happy..hehe...
i will not cry, not try to suicide...
but give me some time ok...

im dun have courage to be meet you on this saturday..
i think so long..i think i better make excuses not to show up tat day..really..when since meet u tat day..
my heart really so pain...
well...i choose not to see u again...
at least wait till you birthday ok...

i really very sorry to you..im never hurt you..
will never let you see all this blog...
im scare will make you cry...
as u cry little baby...
im very love you..sincerely n truely from my heart..

im swear...i will not let the pain
make me lost in this life..
i will fully concentrate in my studies..
and my carreer..eventhough face many obstacles..
i love you..should not have pain in my heart rite
i have lost you..but i will more strong..
hope is there..
to be with you again..haha..dreaming oni
dun scare ok...

yesterday im still remember, when im so sad..
hide myself..i din answer phone calls..
very down..very down..
the moment i really cannot stand..
from msn popup, i saw ur name..
u have send a email to me..
the email..really make burst out in tear..
n..i feel better...
eventhough not a meaningful email...
its just forward email..
but this mean u have not forget me..
this aledi enuff for me..

whew...a bit lega aledi..
hope you always remember me...muaks..

eventhough i know u malas layan me..
but just want to tell you
i promise you i will finish my assignment..
n continue my life without u..
i will live coz ur love...