Suicide?

When I wake up Im thinking the way how to suicide, am i sot jor.

Anyway not his fault, everything is me oni mah. Better me die, then will be no problem at all.

I think of go to balcony and jump off, seems very strong power ask me to do so. How?

Is it an end for me?

Silent with tears

After a while, my tears coming back. But i try to control it.

Now it hard for me to control, my heart so pain. Again ppl lie to me, why i always being trapped.

Cause of my stupidity, i guess. Im just rubbish anyway, that why ppl treat me like rubbish. Simply throw something to me.

So sad and it have tears on my eye. Too sad to do assignment. I cant take this off my mind.

Scene by scene bad things that happen to me last time, flash back in my brain. I think I need to restart myself, might be have a sleep first. I dun wan think of the bad things, it very awful to me. I hate that. But my heart is so pain. I cant think except my heart is so pain. Damn it!

I feel like I wanna go back home. Dun wan ever talk or see........

Preasure

Today is the due date to submit assignment. Yes, I damn worry. Im even MC to do assignment but is still the same. I unable to do it. Im more more worry and my head so damn pain.

But till now i dunno its pain anymore, maybe it pain till i cant feel anything. When i try to think, my brain is more pain. So so so worry :( Feel wanna cry. But in this middle of the nite, I cant find anybody, but i write in the blog again.

I really cant write anything. Why? why? why? I really feel like no more mood to study but my family keep on ask me when i can finish my MBA. I say next year. Actually i can slowly finish my studies but coz i feel so preasure already.

assignment fever

well from now, i oso unable to write a word...how leh

me going to be crazy soon...adoi...wat is going on....

hmm..another triangle love is going on, i also dunno wat to do...hmmm

In Despair

Well...y im still so stubborn and do not want to face reality,
u wan till see him marry oni u will give up izzit?
now confirm..super confirm he have gf liao...

So wat, y my heart feel ache...y leh....
y im still love him...i oso dunno...
maybe im in period...tat y i fell so sad