H.I.M

well..another sad and moody for me,
just now i have saw a word from the Tv,
it say "why want to lie to yourself?",
yes..i really cant lie to myself..

yesterday, i have my fren ask me,
how you felt?
Still cannot forget about him?
i answer, well its just ok for me,
just fren between us...that time he just sit opposite of me
feel very comfortable and i can feel myself alife back,
when he stand up and wave goodbye,
my heart suddenly feel pain,
more pain when only see his back while he walk off,,

what happen to me, i really tot i can forget about him,
can be normal frens, am i lying to myself..
maybe i am...my heart still have him,
many ppl ask me, am i still love him,
i answer no...but..
the truth is im more love him compare when we together that time..

weird hah..oh my gosh..
i really dunno wat happen to me
when we met again, seems like have those days of feeling,
feel so close, feel like myself..
feel happy, feel wan to hug him...
but keep on telling myself,
cannot hug him, he no more longer is mine..

haih..so sad..he not mine...
but want have him to be mine...
but he dun wan me...
im dissapointed him so much,
he wun want me back...

haih its one of the flaw of my life.
so miss him..
after see him..my heart so painful..
the most painful is,
when sit beside him, miss him so much but cant have him..
haih....my world always in sadness...

im always here for you, love u always
my heart only have you
unable to accept other guys into my heart...